Love You Anyhow
I like to summarize this song as an song about unconditional love. To a degree, I believe that this would be most accurate if I were to describe the song's sentiment in two words. That wouldn't satisfy the knack for storytelling that has wore off on me from hanging out with Kyle Furlong though.
The journey with this song, in my opinion, is rich with stories. I debuted it in Stouffville at the Guinness World Record Longest Running Concert, went on to play it at The Bluebird Cafe in Nashville that August, placed second in an NSAI Chapter Challenge for a publishing deal with Ole, then played it with Dayna Manning in Stratford. This song is attached to so many cool memories for me., and finally fulfilling my 12 year old goal of playing at The Sanderson Centre which gave me closure to progress forward and branch out further from playing in Brantford.
It would be fair to say that this song is a reflection of how Brantford started making me feel about my music career at various points throughout the last 5 years. I consistently had (and still have) people telling me things like how at this stage in the game I should be using better equipment - assuming that I choose my instruments based on a low price, and reminding me of who I was when they met me rather than accepting who I've become, which leads to them treating me like jester and taking any cheap jab they can, when other people are around. I even had a local shop owner scold me because I stopped by to grab only $2 in guitar picks on the way to a gig and was told to spend more the next time I came in. What I was looking for was something more like, “Have a good one, we'll see ya again!”. I know these things are small, but they build up, especially when the joke has gotten stale or dead.
All of this has wore me down more times than I can count and made me start doubting if I should be pursuing this and think I may just be a waste of time. I started writing the first verse about how I was going to go to Nashville, but realized no matter where I go, I'll be playing music. I've tried quitting before because I felt I had lost my fire and everytime I try to walk away, a feel good moment comes barreling towards me (“you go and say some silly thing”). It became a love song about how no matter what hurdle comes my way, I can't put this to rest. Like I said in my first entry, I know I'm not the only one. I know they're not even coming from a sincere place. They're likely just looking for a punching bag. It still sits wrong when you deal with this despite setting a goal every day to be respectful to everyone you cross paths with. However, this has helped me count my blessings more than ever. I have amazing people is my immediate circle, my personal/private life, incredible colleagues that are helping me achieve my career goals, and in the last year I've been meeting some of the best strangers who are becoming friends as well as fans. All of you help prevent the negative energies from getting too deep.
On this path, tough times (and difficult people) will always be around one turn or another, but these songs are all mine and no matter what I still love it (anyhow).
"Timbercreek" is a song about parting ways with a similar sentiment to "Wild World", in my interpretation anyway. Whether it's a lover, relative, furry or feathered relative, child, parent, car, etc., there are memories attached to things and people. Thanks to Pixar, we're even more consciously aware of our habit to personify inanimate objects like the Mars Rover. :'(
Goodbyes range from sad to bittersweet, it's not just a "Smell ya later." Timbercreek was a complete goodbye. It was at one of the many times that my life with Natalie changed in order for us to be in a better position. In 2016, as our heads were just above water, a bunch of hard luck came our way and we had to make an easy decision to cut some financial fat. It was a sentimental process with a few trips down memory lane. I don't want to give too much detail because I'd rather you listen to the whole song and catch the line at the end of a chorus that tells you what I'm talking about.
This song wasn't actually planned to be in this group of songs. I originally told Iain I wanted to have an EP ready for my BlackBird Tour. We ended up running out of time because of work schedules, so we decided it would be a better idea to take our time and get the best product we possibly could. Then I remembered "Timbercreek" - along with some others that I had put on the backburner - and started thinking it would be fun to add more songs and make it an album.
This is going to be the title track on my upcoming album. "Moonshine" is a song about sitting at the side of a middle of nowhere road to decompress when life feels too crowded. Whether it's thoughts, people, stress from work, we all need this from time to time.
My personal inspiration for this song was during a time when it felt like life in my hometown was coming undone. No matter what I tried, few people cared. Unfortunately, the people I saw the most would sing my praises, then completely disregard me when I wasn't in the same room. It started wearing on me when it started seeming like I was respected, yet worthless at the same time. One Thursday night, the night before payday, Natalie (my forever human) and I had enough money to buy 5 cans of beer, sit near the airport (we only drank 3 between the two of us, we still had to get home), and decompress from the crappy feelings our hometown was putting into our spirit.
Since then, I found solace in the story of Wayne Gretzky who had the same thing happen in his hometown. I've taken direction from his story of searching for opportunities in other cities. I don't feel resent or bitterness towards my hometown - and I definitely don't consider myself any kind of "Great One" - don't take me the wrong way, but I do keep this story in mind and I can't argue with the results I've seen.
I didn't include all the details of this story, but if you're facing social adversity and self-worth issues, feel free to reach out.
As this 2019 album gets closer to completion, I've started thinking it would be a neat idea to share an acoustic preview of the songs.