Love You Anyhow
I like to summarize this song as an song about unconditional love. To a degree, I believe that this would be most accurate if I were to describe the song's sentiment in two words. That wouldn't satisfy the knack for storytelling that has wore off on me from hanging out with Kyle Furlong though.
The journey with this song, in my opinion, is rich with stories. I debuted it in Stouffville at the Guinness World Record Longest Running Concert, went on to play it at The Bluebird Cafe in Nashville that August, placed second in an NSAI Chapter Challenge for a publishing deal with Ole, then played it with Dayna Manning in Stratford. This song is attached to so many cool memories for me., and finally fulfilling my 12 year old goal of playing at The Sanderson Centre which gave me closure to progress forward and branch out further from playing in Brantford.
It would be fair to say that this song is a reflection of how Brantford started making me feel about my music career at various points throughout the last 5 years. I consistently had (and still have) people telling me things like how at this stage in the game I should be using better equipment - assuming that I choose my instruments based on a low price, and reminding me of who I was when they met me rather than accepting who I've become, which leads to them treating me like jester and taking any cheap jab they can, when other people are around. I even had a local shop owner scold me because I stopped by to grab only $2 in guitar picks on the way to a gig and was told to spend more the next time I came in. What I was looking for was something more like, “Have a good one, we'll see ya again!”. I know these things are small, but they build up, especially when the joke has gotten stale or dead.
All of this has wore me down more times than I can count and made me start doubting if I should be pursuing this and think I may just be a waste of time. I started writing the first verse about how I was going to go to Nashville, but realized no matter where I go, I'll be playing music. I've tried quitting before because I felt I had lost my fire and everytime I try to walk away, a feel good moment comes barreling towards me (“you go and say some silly thing”). It became a love song about how no matter what hurdle comes my way, I can't put this to rest. Like I said in my first entry, I know I'm not the only one. I know they're not even coming from a sincere place. They're likely just looking for a punching bag. It still sits wrong when you deal with this despite setting a goal every day to be respectful to everyone you cross paths with. However, this has helped me count my blessings more than ever. I have amazing people is my immediate circle, my personal/private life, incredible colleagues that are helping me achieve my career goals, and in the last year I've been meeting some of the best strangers who are becoming friends as well as fans. All of you help prevent the negative energies from getting too deep.
On this path, tough times (and difficult people) will always be around one turn or another, but these songs are all mine and no matter what I still love it (anyhow).
As this 2019 album gets closer to completion, I've started thinking it would be a neat idea to share an acoustic preview of the songs.